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Liora Writes's avatar

This hits like a mirror with breath still on it. The form, the flow, the ache. God, I feel it. The way you built this, line by line, mimicking the breath held and the shudder. Thank you for putting voice to that hunger. I see you in this. 💜

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imarkanx || istvan markan 🍁's avatar

Thank you. I wrote this after a romance ended badly. Such is life!

At least it spawned a beautiful poem.

I appreciate your reading and seeing my poetic intentions. I often think I over design my stanza structures. Like a child using words as Lego.

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Liora Writes's avatar

Oh, I think it's absolutely brilliant. Next-level crafting when you can infuse that much meaning into placement. Honestly humbling.

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Rebecca Collins's avatar

I needed this today. You always seem to have the words I'm looking for to pull myself out of my feelings.

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imarkanx || istvan markan 🍁's avatar

Thank you. I am glad my words connected with you. It’s humbling to think my jumble of thoughts can help or inspire another. I hope your journey continues with greater serenity.

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Bougie Hippie's avatar

I want to know too...

how

do you silence

this gnawing

want

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imarkanx || istvan markan 🍁's avatar

Here I was hoping someone held the answer.

🤣

I guess we keep looking for what we are missing.

Thank you for reading and leaving a comment. Hearing from others doesn’t silence the gnawing but it helps!

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Neha Oberoi's avatar

This flows with the ache beautifully, the hunger is palpable. What struck me is how it sits entirely in that ache without reaching for something beyond it—almost like holding breath in the middle of wanting. It made me wonder if that ravenousness is also pointing to something deeper than what we think we’re missing. Maybe what we’re actually craving isn’t ‘more’ but an end to craving itself. Thank you for putting words to that rawness—it made me pause.

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imarkanx || istvan markan 🍁's avatar

I hadn’t pondered that deeper aspect. Are we looking to be filled or to be fulfilled? That is much deeper philosophical question. Not the ‘how’ do I fill the ache. But ‘why’ do I have this ache.

Thank you for reading and making me think.

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Neha Oberoi's avatar

It shifts everything, doesn’t it? When the ‘why’ gets space, the ache feels different. Thank you for staying with the question, Istvan! 🙏

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Outtamydamnmind's avatar

This hit me deep. There’s something powerful about the way you let the ache exist without trying to resolve it just letting it breathe, letting it be. I felt the weight in every line. Thank you for writing with this kind of honesty. It matters. 🖤

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imarkanx || istvan markan 🍁's avatar

Thank you for this!

I was uncertain about the way I had simply left the ache hanging. It felt honest to me on an emotional level - as we humans rarely feel satiated on all levels.

On a poetic structure side my rational brain kept saying “But it doesn’t resolve!”

I am glad I listened to my heart. Your comment helps greatly to resolve my internal dissonance.

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Outtamydamnmind's avatar

Always follow your intuition it knows best 😊 🫶🏼

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Carlos M.'s avatar

Wanting is infinite.

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imarkanx || istvan markan 🍁's avatar

Indeed!

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Wildwood Writer's avatar

Beautiful 🩶

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imarkanx || istvan markan 🍁's avatar

Thank you!

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